Who Hit Pause?

It took me a month to think about my relationship and all the changes it went through in the year 2015. I started my LDR in November 2013 but it wasn’t until 2015  that it evolved into something I was really proud of. It took us over a year to gain a level of confidence in our relationship where we could feel like we were building something solid and lasting not only in our eyes but in the eyes of people around us.

When you are in a LDR you want your relationship to feel like a “normal relationship” even though you are dealing with distance, time difference, cultural differences, different beliefs, the opinion of family and friends and all the rest that the world wants to throw at you (I’ve dealt with all of it). The year 2015 was the year when we achieved a level or normalcy that made us open up about our feelings to people outside our circle of trust. I remember calling Ahmad my friend and hearing my mom in the background say “boyfriend! her boyfriend!”. Sounds funny but I became a master liar when it came to my relationship. It all changed last year. You can imagine me in the supermarket when my mom mentions casually “your bf…” (insert something LDR related) then someone that knows me would ask “where is he from?” I would freak out and out of nowhere my mom would reply “oh he is from Egypt!” and she would start talking about him. Took me all that time to be ready for the weird looks of other people at the mention of it. That cute picture I have of him at work? Don’t ask me how many of my clients/cases thinks that’s my adopted son (yeah he looks young enough and they are mostly old blind ladies).

It all felt better last year when we started sharing our relationship with more people. we started leaving each other cute messages on social media and even leaving comments with hearts and all for everyone to see. Of course with great changes comes great responsibility. It was the year when I got all the avalanche of questions, including the reasons why I had joined the LDRBN site and I decided it was time to step up to the plate and be proud of what we had built together.

I can truly say that 2015 was a great year for us and our relationship. It was the year he left for Army, marking the beginning of the last step in our journey to close the distance. I said before that it took me a whole month to do a review of 2015, it’s because after  all the changes when I compared it to my relationship now after he went to Army, I can’t help but to ask myself  who hit the pause button?

 

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To read more about 2015 in a LDR and see the writing prompt that inspired this post, head to the LDRBN site. If you are in a LDR and want to be part of the experience, APPLY HERE. Don’t forget to mention my name  Gibran.

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Love Inspired Tech: Enter to win

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The LIT Light is a cool gadget that will take your Long Distance Video chats to the next level. It literally brings more lights up your face, providing better lighting when Video Chatting or Skyping with your love!

LIT was invented out of necessity when Hollywood producer Mariam Zerehi was in London on a film shoot and met someone that she wanted to keep in touch with. Using TV lighting principles, LIT combines warm LEDs, an opal diffuser and a sliding dimmer to give you that all-important glow.

In collaboration with LDR Magazine, Love inspired Tech is giving away one of these to a lucky LDR Couple for FREE!

Want in on this neat gadget? You and your partner can BOTH enter for free by clicking HERE or the image above!

 

Little Box Of Horrors

There is a box hidden inside the darkest corners of my mind. It keeps safe what we have, keeps our relationship from breaking apart. You see what I most fear is that time will change what we feel. So I go there once in while to put all my bad thoughts inside. Stored away in that dark space is the doubt that I have. When the trust tries to go away I lock those thoughts inside that place. Jealousy and anger are there too all part of a time bomb I’m scared it could explode soon. Now as I watch from afar with a glass of wine in my hand as the only witness to my crimes…trying to keep my insecurities locked inside so my relationship can last. A final toast to everything inside…

For all the things you didn’t see. The messages and text you won’t get but I wrote them anyway, they got deleted before I could push send. All the things we won’t share; the thoughts, the words, calls, dates, special days. I’m still wondering if you would care.
All the things you forgot, all the promises you broke. The written pages, quotes collected, Pinterest boards created but you didn’t get them. The social apps we couldn’t share, always an excuse to hide them somewhere.
Chances missed, opportunities not taken. Pictures never shown of things and places; a world we could’ve shared but we missed it. All we could learn or teach the other. Now I wonder why you never took the time for it.
The distance felt kept getting bigger. I was giving up on what I was feeling, trying to keep it away and hidden because I am afraid of all of it fading.
For all the times we tried. I learned the drill: fight, argue, forgive and try, try, try. All the times I cried because I couldn’t say I wasn’t alright.
For the times I felt neglected. The secrets, the questions, the plans forgotten forever.
I will drink to that and more to come, because I decided to put it all in The Box.

Now that all is done I will leave a note on top of the box. It will serve as a reminder for next time I’m here, to decide if it’s worth it to hide my fears. Remember this was me trying to make this work while wondering what you felt.. “SHE OFFERED YOU THE WORLD AND YOU CHOSED TO SAVE IT INSTEAD”.

 

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To read more about Fears  in LDRs and see the writing prompt that inspired this post, head to the LDRBN site. If you are in a LDR and want to be part of the experience, APPLY HERE. Don’t forget to mention my name  Gibran.

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One Lovely Blog Award

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I was nominated for my first Award by 1wayplaneticket. Thank you so much for nominating my blog, it means a lot since I started this blog recently.

 

 

 

Here are the Rules:

  1. Each nominee must thank the person who nominated them (including a link to their blog). They must list the rules and post the blog award badge in the post.
  2. They must add 7 facts about themselves.
  3. They must nominate 15 other bloggers and notify them that they have been nominated.

Seven facts about me:

  1. I’ve been in a LDR for a little over 2 yrs.
  2. When I was little I wanted to marry an Egyptian (my bf is Egyptian yay!)
  3. I love to help people and I can do that every single day at my job.
  4. Freedom is my greatest treasure (I’m a Sagittarius)
  5. Can’t live without coffee.
  6. I love to make desserts.
  7. I used to lead a support group for parents of children with Autism.

I nominate this 15 bloggers ( In no particular order, all fellow bloggers from LDRBN):

  1. Sparks & Sounds
  2. The Fat Kat
  3. The Eleven:Eleven Diaries
  4. Dan Van Werkhoven
  5. Toast & Tea Together
  6. The Distance Between Us
  7. Sofieyah
  8. WOMAN OF LETTERS
  9. 287 MILE LDR
  10. Sunshine & Snowstorms
  11. STORY OF US
  12. From UK to the Philippines with Love
  13. LEFFELOVESDESTRUA’S LDR JOURNEY
  14. Bummy LDR Couple
  15. ATOMIC WORDS

On My Way To Better Days

Every month LDRBN asks us to set three goals for ourselves. Since is the beginning of the year, what better than to start 2016 with some new year’s resolutions after a brief look at 2015.

My year 2015 had many things in it. New office at work. New friends. This was the year i decided to use my blog as something more than a storage for silly thoughts and other people got to see what was in it. I joined an awesome community of bloggers where I can share and read about everyone’s experiences in LDR. It was my 2 yrs anniversary (ldr) too . Everything wasn’t peaches and cream. My SO left for army and that brought a new set of challenges that I hope we can overcome in 2016.

With that said… Here are my goals for 2016:

  • Eat healthy: I already drink tons of water but I have to keep that up. Less sugar, make all my meals and snacks so I can speed up my metabolism etc..
  • Save money: I want to pay off my student loan and save money to close the distance soon.

Last but not least..the relationship goal:

  • Getting my passport: My SO finishes his army time this year so we need to start setting things up and planning for the near future YAY!!

I will make sure to check my progress on these 3 during the year.